Merry Christmas..
this yr i spend without u
this yr im not happy
this yr is never a season of love.
i known you for 8years.
4years of friendship, 4years of close relationship.
how do u expect me to forget everything so easily...
how do u expect me to live happily now....
im trying to be happy...
i dunnoe how u managed to completely forget my existence in your life...
have u really love me that much before?
i dont need your blessing.
what's the point of giving me your blessing when u have hurt me so badly.
its not going to cover over what u had me gone thru for you.
im not trying to sound like some revengeful girl, but just hopes u know nothing you do will really makes me forget the hurt n pain ive been thru.
and i'll never be able to give u mine blessing as well. sorry
i really wish i can hates u.
today is 1st Dec,2010.
im writing this post to remind me of what has happened.
i've did all i can to hold on to our love.
i can see you drifting away, and i did do my part.
but you no longer holding on.
our love was once so strong, everyones even me and you tot we will be like that till the end.
you broke the promises u gave me, the trust i build in you, the happiness you lead me on.
ive changed so much for you. i almost gave up dancing, my friends for you. and even my life.
but u just dont give a damn to our love.
do you realised how much you hurt me.
do you even know the hurt you gave me made me so different now.
im doing alot of things now.
things that somtimes i dunnoe why i will do so.
im not really happy.
thinking of all the things that were once there and now gone.
I'm leading a life where i dunnoe what lies ahead for me.
But things that i do somehow a part of it, im still doing it for you, for the love i need.
I dont think you will ever see this blog.
but, Dawei, i really do miss you and still loves you alot.
