Thanks peeps for all the concern...im fine la...hahaha guess the previous post was too EMO.k k im fine im really fine... well i really must say dis out..l reali loves DANCING!!!!!
i miss bryan... (lols)
我好不开心.. 你根本就不了解我.. 每次都好像是我的错.
你总是认为是我不够体谅, 觉得是我自私的不让你做你想要做的事.
但是我并没有要控制你的自由. 知道我在你心里是这样的人我好伤心.
你却只会说那并不是真心话, 而是一时的气话. 但我却非常肯定你有这样
想过我. 如经你要去钓你的死人鱼我就让你去. 虽然还是会不开心但是因为
你根本就不把我当一回事吗! 是个星期六!! 我就在你家, 你还好意思假装
一副不想去的表情.别以为我不知道你心里想什么. 还不就是要我开口说你
让后你再反过来讲我又不让你做你想要做的事. 但你放心, 因为现在的我
只会说你去吧. 反正留你, 你的心都不在. 更糟的是也许你还会生我的气.
算了, 因为你都不会想着如何陪我. 你只喜欢对着电脑打游戏 或躺在床上
睡大觉! 我并不是看到你累了不会让你休息. 但是你累是因为你去鱼池半夜
才回家. 而当我决定自己孤独回家好让你去鱼池时, 你也根本觉得是我小气不
想陪你一起去. 原本以为让你去了你要去的地方后, 隔天你会花点时间陪陪我
但是你却是面对着你的电脑打游戏, 累了就躺下睡. . 我根本都不觉得我有存在你的世界里.
别只会说我没跟你说我要的是什么. 别告诉我你不懂什么叫关心. 别说什么
我要去那里,要吃什么, 你都会带我去, 这就叫关心. 简直是狗屁! 对我要去哪
你就带我去,但你从来都只是陪在我身边, 似乎就只是等我想离开或觉得我
什么要每次去走走. 你不会陪我看看, 有时还会觉得我看东西太久. 因为害怕你生气, 我根本都不敢叫你带我去走, 除非我肯定我想要买的东西才会问你要不要出门. 每次都说看我要做什么, 为什么你不能给意见. 我好讨厌自己!
好讨厌你! 你可不可以反省我们之间的爱情到底真的快乐吗? 真的就只是我一个人想太多, 还是你根本就没真心付出过!
我的心情很不好!!!!!!!!!!
ytd was 15th Aug 2007.
it's was Jeanne's Bdae & also my favourite Yes 933fm DJ bdae.
N he is MR Dennis Chew ChongQing!
so Happy Belated bdae to both! (althought i doubt chongqing will read my blog) haha
but sadly ,
Ytd also marked the 49th day of the departure of my dearest instrutor , Ishi Lau.
There was a special rital held at the temple for him. Of coz mi n my sis went for it.
I plan to take leave in the morning
but my supervisior being kind enuff said he will clock in for mi.
We reached the temple ard 8plus going 9am.
Dint see any familiar faces but all his fans club members.
at ard a few mins past 9 , the monk toOk his tablet n procced to the main hall.
we all followed the monk n headed to the hall.
Saw Emilin. but we dint talk , i seriously dunnow wat to say 2 her in such occasion. =)
wel anyway the prayers started.
Monks chatting inside the hall. we were sitted inside listening to it.
Ppl of studiowu arrived too.
Yutaki, Sheila , Besty , students whom he taught b4 n of coz his fellow Souls member .
p.s(sidetrack) *yutaki getting more n more handsome.* oops.
kk back to the main topic
i was sitting inside too as i was one of the earli bird who reached .
but after listening to the prayers for once some time i feel the urge 2 ans nature call.
therefore when i found a chance to walk out of the hall i left leaving my sis still sitting inside.
when i return i saw tat the members of Soul are also sitting outside.
I just quietly stand outside while still hearing the prayers being chant.
Shortly the prayers ended, or rather there was a 20min break b4 the next one starts.
Everyone was out of the hall.
Chatting drinking water , visiting the washroom.
The Souls members were preparing the giving out of Ishi's composed CD.
there were ard 3o0pcs to be given away.
Wel i was kinda happi to get it too.
after all i can still get to hear Ishi sings..
Oh ya when i went over to get the CD, Justin (one of the soul member),
said I looked kinda familiar to him n wondering if we met somwher b4.
but seriously i dun recall any incident of mi seeing him , except for those superband n Evoke performance.
haha.. well n we even said to each other See ya ard. haha i wonder if we will reali get to see eachother.
anyway i went back to work.
IT WAS BAD!
the rain was so heavy tat my jeans were wet up to 20cm above my ankle.
Yurks!
but wat to do. i still need to work.
after work i went to darling's hse. listened to a few of Ishi's composition in the CD. I can feel tat every songs he wrot somehow define how he reali felt. n they all sounded real depressing. HAis.. but on the other hand, his song are all well written too. i WUN play his song in my blog or any website. coz it's his compositions n i dun wish to see any piracy of his products. u may tink im selfish but i just hopes wat belong to him will stay original..
everytime when i went to visit him , it was always with a heavy heart. Reali misses tat smile of him.. *Dear Ishi, you're being deeply miss by us*
