DaNcE - The Addiction tt keep Me Going

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

back to my blog after sometime...hmmm last week finally mitup with my ruansters on Good friday...was so damn happi to see all of them..well at least most of them turn up. Yeah i mean most..haha.. glad tat i have managed to gather them all out..hehehz... took lots of photos as usualz..hahahz... but i haven upload it up yet...hahahz.. will get it done asap ok? hehe
Sun went to Zoo with deardear with my beloved didi, Andra.haha.. well made dear angry in the morning, coz he said i took too much time to prepare...hahaz...oops so sad.. whenever dear angry with mi , i feel so sad..:( but upon reaching there, he short of cool down liaoz ..hehe..juz knew he couldnt bear to be angry with mi..hahahz...but i'll try my best bt to make him angry again..hehez..everyting was fine but that Butterflies open area was like hell to mi... cant imagine its will be the 2nd time i cried out of tat area...shit ... i know betterflies are beautiful..but i juz dun feel at ease when i see all of them flyin ard mi... well onli dear n didi enjoyed themselves there... hahahz.. dear said i was weak..idiot him... dear start sch liao... will be busy so i wun be able to accompany him tat much..dunwan to hold up his time studying. somehow feel tat dear like so sianz everytime i see him..maybe becoz i always dunnoe wan to do wat...haiz... hopes everyting will trun better so0n.... love him s0o much....

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

peiiru is happi with her life n0w.. hmmm well at least she's happi most of the times..haha.. Dear was reali so sweet n nice..i juz cant help feeling so blissful..althought sometimes i'll feel the sense of insecurity n pressure but whenever he's by my side, i knew he will never make mi feel sad... he neber reali throw his temper at mi n never will he wan to makes mi angry..
oh ya went MOS last fri.supposedlly was to accomapny kangaroo to go take his so called membership thingy. well in the end we end up inside..haha mitup with jny at MOS too.. hehe so hapi... but alrite lo wasnt reali tat happening la... guess i was tired too... oh ya it's like the 1st time ever since i knew my dear the 1st time we ever went clubbing together...haha... haiz dear dear starting sch soon... dunn0e y i dun feel so happi...haiz...
Dear i love you till bits n pieces...haha...

Sincerly yours,

always, forever till enternity... *muackz*

Monday, April 03, 2006

things are nt progressing in a gd way... ever since the breakoff... my life seems to filled with problems n m0re problems everyday... n yesterday was the onli time when i ever feel upset over the breakoff.. his frds were the onli one hu tell mi different thing... well it's nt tat they asking mi to go back...Alex did say i shld follow my heart..but the words he said t0 mi last nite keep repeating themselves over n over again in my mind..." ken reali love u alot, as long as u come back to him, he will change...he never behave so depresss b4...but n0w...it's all becoz of u..."
i reali feel s0 bad... at the sametime i feel some kind od sad... ya 3 years isnt it a pity..but it not the duration of a relationship tat shld tied each n other t0gether..but the feeling of being together..regardless be it 1 month or even 1 week...haiz.i dunn0e...i juz feel tat i juz so evil... y did i ever chose to hurt him in such a way.. seeing him behaving like this i'm reali lost f0r words. but n0w i also kn0w tat the one i wan to be with is nt him... i reali hopes to help him get over this period of pain so0n, but wat can i do... i can no longer love him the way i used to do... i wanted to live an happi life everyday but things juz surfaced themselves n pop right to mi every n0w and than... juz h0w long will all these thing end... i dunn0e even kn0w who are the close frds whom i can reali put in my trust to..(well of coz my sec sch frds are nt in this list, i n0e i can count onthem...)
i'm glad tat my dear love mi n dote on mi.. share with mi watever problems i facing..but i also dun wish t0 see tat becoz of mi he nid to burden himself with all these problem...haiz... wat shdl i do..