Tuesday, February 28, 2006
it's all over... i dint shed a single tear... 3yrs 9mth 21 days ... i dunnoe izit i'm prepared for dis outcome or was i too cold-blooded.. seeing h0w he behaves last nite reali makes my heart sank... i might look alrite but thinking of the tears he cried n the way he tok i juz cant believe i actually bring myself to hurt him... its nt tat i dun love u animore but i nid m0re than juz love from someone to eusure mi a future... i kn0e he's feeling down n uneasy n0w.. afterall having used to the feeling of someone by ur side n0w its all gone.. h0w can u adjust to the new life so fast... same goes to mi.. i feel kinda weird... abit of lost.. i dunnoe if i will regret... but as for n0w i hopes a cool down period can let him mature n prove himself well... still feeling troubled n0w... haiz.. i hopes he can be happi....
Monday, February 27, 2006
last week was kinda enriching n pack for mi.. went out on sat to catch the movie "Final Destination 3" it was indeed a nice sh0w..but with lots of violent gross n bloody screenn..eerk.. after tat was chat at esplanade.. was so tired liao but hu n0e reach my hse downstair kinda got a shock..haha...haiz.. he suddenly called mi n say he was waiting at my hse for mi.. idiot.. k dun wish to elaborate on sat.. Sun was happeneing..haha mit minru go sentosa!!!! hahaha was to mit her at 10.30am but i woke up onli at 10.45am..haha in the end when we finally mit up i tink it was ard 12pluz going 1?? haha aniway we still made our way ther.. weather was fine.. no strong sun , no rain.. GOOD. haha.. oh ya did i mention the Anderson ice-cream located at the Butterflies park ther were delicious..haha if minru u're reading u n0e wat i'm saying...haha.. there is cute guy , he bery cute.. n0t bad looking n he smile so sweet... the ice-cream dint melt but i tink mi n minru has already melted juz by seeing him smile back...ahhaha.. but gers... HE ATTACHED! hahaha... to end our excursion in Sentosa we stayed to watch the 8.40pm Musical fountain sh0w... years after years the wh0le show is still the same thing.. so onli watch it once awhile ok?? haha.. it was a happi day at sentosa..hehe.. after tat reach tamp 201 accompany minru go take MC.haha wat to do she nid an MC to claim tat she's unfit for w0rk..haha.. minru, Breathe breathe harder..hahahaha... funni... mit up with Wxxxx n Kxx at 201 at a later time.. someh0w there 2 different feeling towards these 2 guys.. sense of remoseful toward Kxx. sense of unconfidence towards Wxxxxx. i dunwan to hurt Kxx but h0w long can i drag... i do likes Wxxxx but i juzz dun have confidence of mself... i feel tat he can chose someone far better than mi , i n0e tat he have choices to chose n i'm n0t wat he wan in a partner at all... the gers ard him are m0re prettier n have far m0re better n higher education than mi... i'm juz someone hu can crap well with him.... haiz... everyone saying it eithr Kxx or Wxxxx getting hurt but does anione realised tat i'm also the one hu getting the most hurt... haiz... __________--REST. CASE--_________
Sunday, February 19, 2006
today is a sunday... tot today got programme.. but well expected tat in the end it will be cancel.... watever i'm piss off... i'm prepared..luckily i've arrange to mit my korkor or mit dawei... i juxx knew tat tat idiot will cancelled our miting in the end... it's not tat i wan to insist u to mit mi but if u expected it too than dun assume to mi as if u will mit mi lo... i'm tryin to act blur liao but dun take mi as a fool... u tink i didnt see the photo last nite ma..i juz chose to pretend tat i dint see it... and allowing u time to hide it away... are u sure u are always frank to mi? are u so confidence tat u told mi everyting.. are u sure wat u feel for mi is real... realised tat u cant reali trust anione..sometimes even ur ownself u cant trust...
Thursday, February 16, 2006
valentine has pass...haiz..nothing special has happened.. but shocking to say dear brought mi a $400plus SK necklace..i'm supposed to be bery happi...but no.. n0t mainly becoz i dun reali likes the design..but.....haiz... does it reali take more wat it seems to reali understand someone..juz wat the problem was... everyones telling mi to make the rite choice..but truthfully speaking , sometimes i dun even n0e if 'he' is reali the rite one... we did seems to understand each other but on the other hand my mind tends to wander and question myself... do i reali understand u.. maybe i do maybe i dun...still feeling so uncertain of some questions..but i juz dint wan to bring it up... was i tinking to0 much...u do makes my day happi..i loook forward to see u everyday despite the fact tat i'm s00ooo tired.. but when i'm all alone i'm worried.. fearing tat maybe things were not wat we seen. maybe i juz nid m0re time to understand u... even if u chose to deceive mi..than please deceive mi forever... sometimes n0t knowing anithing might be better... argh i sound so stupid.. i n0e i tink alot but tat mi... i wish things could be simple .. i juz wan to be happi .. are u my happiness??
Monday, February 13, 2006
yesterday was
bored..i lame at hm the wholeday... with the exceptional of going out to east point to get something.. haha... no ones was free to mit mi ..
NO ONE! darn... spent my aftern0on listening to songs slacking... so basically nthing to comment on wat happened yesterday..
NOTHING HAPPENED...!!!! hahaha...
Tml is Valentine's Day liaoz.... hmmm dunnoe where i'll be going .. dunnoe wat i'll be doing.. dun even know if i will be celebrating V.Day ma.... oh ya these few days mit up with jny and flora xiuling they all... ok lo once in a while mit them up for some chats.. interesting... esp the nite with jny and _______ at coffeebean chat..haha.. n0t bad lo guess the topic was arousing everyone's interest?? hahaha.. i dunn0e.. haiz there is this distance bwt mi and him liao.. am i'm the one hu changing?? i feel so bad.. but at the same time i reali dun wish to drag animore... but i juz dun have the courage to do so... and i feel so uncertain if another him will bring mi happiness ma.. he's just so much like B......, giving mi the insecure in his feelings.. haiz... hopes tml will be a day full of love and happiness.... Advance Happy Valentine's Day everyone!!!!
Monday, February 06, 2006
i wan to ask a question...
Who will u chose? The one hu gave u secure in his love for ya but yet no secure in the future?
Or the one who's able to give u a secure future yet u dun feel his secure in love for ya??
Nice question...do ponder over it....
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
haha so long never blog liaoz ... aniway today is already the 4th day of Chinese New Year.. Tml nid to get back to w0rk liaoz...SIANZ..haha.. ok sure tok on wat happened on new year dayS ba..Eve of new year day, SAturday. as usual got to go work but went off at 1pm?? cant remember.. oh ya i onli managed to buy finish my new yr clothes on the day before new year eve n also new yr eve it self..so pathetic...hahaha... but overall was quite happi with wat i've brought.. hmmm new year day. wake up earli as always.. took our mani years later family fotos..so funni sia... trying to position ourselves.. n my korkor tink he's pro keep saying dis saying tat..but in the end nthing special abt those fotos lei..haha went to xiaogu's hse to bai nian... Surprisely dis year my family were the last to arrive. normally we were the 1st lo... took lots of fotos with my cousins too.. and i supposed that the 1st time we took a cousin group foto ba...so interesting.. welll n of coz it's remind mi of my late 'biao jie' okok sure nt bring up unhappy stuffs... plan to go KTV with my aunts and cousins.. but my xiaogu say NO.. mi and jie get bored we decided to lie to get out 1st... wandering abt at tampines inter...so POOR THING... wanted to go K box but tot it was too exp and not worth it so we change our mind. but in the end we did something more TOOPID. we ask xiaogu and my brothers and cousin to go LALALA. and end up mi and jie spend more than wat we tot was already exp for the 2 of us...hahah but it was an enjoyable nite at the KTV with them... great fun laughters...haha happi.. day 2 went to xiaogu hse again..well hu say the OX is lucky dis yr..seems like i'm keep losting money sia..SUAY.. maybe coz my jie is on the gambling table as mi tat y onli one OX can survive..haha..dudz... at nit went to watch movie, Have Fun With Dick N Jane. olrite lo nt a bd show , amusing. went to ah na 's hse bai nian after the show.. so tired so went hm at ard 12plus.. DAy 3 which was yesterday...hmmm i was at hm till 7 plus. went to xiaohui's 21st bdae chalet at aranda.. cant tink of wat to buy for her so gave her ang bao instead...reali wanted to buy somthing for her but sorry cant tink of wat to get la... onli stayed at her chalet till 9plus going 10 than went off liaoz.. went to settle some stupid error i've made.hahaha after tat mit my korkor go east coast de KTV pub.. got 1 uncle sing like killing chicken..kaoz BUEY TAHAN.. but i cant laught la..hahaha... after tat ah leaong drive to go Geylang eat.. i wasnt hungry so dint eat.wanted to go hm straight de micheal keep asking mi to go supper with them than they sent mi hm.. so i was like hmmm orh... haiz..haha reached hm at 4plus...ok i got to start on my work liao..brought back some work stuffs to complete... happi new year everyone!!
