for the past few days it's seems more like one long continous day for mi..
woke up 3.38am in the morning of sat .
maybe it was an intinct of wat. my sis msg mi.
my 4th uncle passed away..
i couldnt get back to slp. i rushed down to the hospital with my brother.
i saw grandma . her eye were red. everyones was looking depressed.
went hm again at 5amplus. went down again to my aunt's place at 10am again.
the wake was held there.
mi n sis spent 3 nite staying up to keep the 'xiang(1)' going
even though i was tired but i noe it's the last time i'l be seeing him.
luckily kor brought some games down to help us endure the nite away.
saw this harmless big bee.. it just stayed quietly near my uncle offering table.
my xiaogu even talk to it asking it to go away n dun frighten mi n sis.
n indeed it crawl off. grandma followed it out. . it came back again.
n tis time mi n sis talk to it. asking it to stay at one spot.
we may sound funny but i doubt we care hw senseless we are.
been haveing braekfast at 5amplus in the morning for the past 3 days.
ytd cremetation at mandai.
i dint allow myself to cry. everytime the tears fill up my eyes i held back.
esp the back when we called him to remembe to return my voice were trembling.
went back to aunt's place. grandma was strong or maybe not.
she dint appeared tat devasted le. but i noe everyone's heart was tired n sad.
even my father was depress too. i tink i heard him crying some nite b4 on the cab back.
it's hurts even more to see ur family members being like that.
i dun talk much to 4th uncle. but i still remembered the scene when i last saw him b4 he was hospitalised. the last time i saw him when i went to visit him in hospital with grandma.
he keep wavin us to go back. he dun wan grandma to see him in tat state.
everyting has ended. he's no longer suffering.. but i tot he was supposed to be getting well..
hospital are always lying on the condition. are they really doing their best....
father collecting his ashes today. guess everyone will miss him.
on a brigher side , it's Valentine's Day today.
dear in NS. outfield today. so wun even received his call.
BUT! he send flowers n bear to my office.
Thanks darling! Loves...=)
